Dumb Meanderings of an Ubermensch

its 8 am...

2004-08-01T08:10:00.001-04:00

and I have not been to bed yet... I finally figured out how to make my site work. SO... i couldn't stop till i was done. Well... all the buttons work now. I'm going to bed. Bye

its 8 am...

2004-08-01T08:10:00.000-04:00

and I have not been to bed yet... I finally figured out ho wto make my site work. SO... i couldn't stop till i was done. Well... all the buttons work now. I'm going to bed. Bye

I can relax...

2004-07-31T18:47:00.000-04:00

Sweet... I redid my site and i am happy... i don't know where i was going with the intro i made but it wasn't going where i wanted... So i scrapped it. I decided to forgo an intro and go to the main page instead. The nav buttons havve no code... bu tit a good look at wha tth esite will look like.

ok.... here's the link again... and bye for now. And one again... the long way
http://www.geocities.com/ubermensch_ver2

P.S. give me some feedback on the change.

Bye

New Link...

2004-07-26T23:45:00.000-04:00

It still has no sound... but at least the skeleton site is up. The only part done is the first page. The info box is going to be updated regularly to let you all in on the progress and whats new.
doesn't really matter anyway. No one will ever see the site. Just like no one is reading this blog.

Oh well.

In case any one really is reading this... here's the new link to the page. and here it is the long way: http://www.geocities.com/ubermensch_ver2

Update...

2004-07-26T23:34:00.000-04:00

Yeah... Ok.... Whatever. I went nuts a few days ago. Massive panic attacks and shit. It was a blast. I guess people were concerned so I went to see mental health. So I guess I'm better now, they gave me Seroquel; it slows down my brain. I can sleep at night and not freak out. It makes me tired, but thats good. Anyhoo... ok.

Cheese is good

Bye

Whew! its almost done....

2004-07-20T13:52:00.000-04:00

I have been diligently working on a digital portfolio to show off my skills as a graphic artist. I had a portfolio, but my mother deleted my harddrives a while back to spite me for moving out. SO.... i have to start from scratch. I am making the site primarily ou tof Flash. Meaning i have to learn flash. I just tested launched my rough draft of the intro onto Geocities. I normally do not like geocities, but as a tester, it works fine. so here it is. The intro has no sound yet. That takes a lot of time to find the right loops and effects. If you know of some good effects let me know where they are.

http://www.geocities.com/ubermensch86

Tell me what you think so far, its a rough draft and alot has to be changed so be nice.

This looked cool...

2004-07-20T13:29:00.000-04:00

I saw this off of a blog from a friend of mine I thought it was cool.
The rules are: bold what you've seen all the way through; italicize what you've seen part of; underline what you own; add three of your own.

01. Trainspotting
02. Shrek
03. M
04. Dogma
05. Strictly Ballroom
06. The Princess Bride
07. Love Actually
08. The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring (hell YEah!!)
09. The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers (LOTR Rocks)
10. The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King (Yeaah Buddy!)
11. Reservoir Dogs
12. Desperado
13. Swordfish
14. Kill Bill Vol. 1
15. Donnie Darko (Frickin Awesome!!!!)
16. Spirited Away
17. Better Than Sex
18. Sleepy Hollow
19. Pirates of the Caribbean
20. The Eye
21. Requiem for a Dream
22. Dawn of the Dead
23. The Pillow Book
24. The Italian Job
25. Goonies
26. Baseketball
27. The Spice Girls Movie
28. Army of Darkness
29. The Color Purple
30. The Safety of Objects
31. Can't Hardly Wait
32. Walking Across Egypt
33. Finding Nemo
34. Monsters Inc.
35. Circle of Friends
36. Mary Poppins
37. The Bourne Identity
38. Forrest Gump
39. A Clockwork Orange
40. Kindergarten Cop
41. On The Line
42. My Big Fat Greek Wedding
43. Final Destination
44. Sorority Boys
45. Urban Legend
46. Cheaper by the Dozen
47. Fierce Creatures
48. Dude, Where's My Car
49. Ladyhawke
50. Ghostbusters
51. Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
52. Back to the Future
53. An Affair To Remember
54. Somewhere In Time
55. North By Northwest
56. Moulin Rouge
57. Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
58. The Wizard of Oz
59. Zoolander
60. A Walk to Remember
61. Chicago
62. Vanilla Sky
63. The Sweetest Thing
64. Don't Tell Mom the Babysitters Dead
65. The Night Before Christmas
66. Chasing Amy
67. Edward Scissorhands
67. Battle Royale
68. Kill Bill Vol. 2
69. Fight Club
70. Ocean's Eleven
71. Interview with a Vampire
72. Bubble Boy
73. Newsies
74. Master and Commander
75. Tom and Huck
76. Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone
77. Men In Black
78. Shrek 2
79. A Knight's Tale
80. Ever After
81. Stepmom
82. Wet Hot American Summer
83. Secretary
84. Cinema Paradiso
85. The Philadelphia Story
86. Waiting for Guffman
87. Kissing Jessica Stein
88. Amelie
89. Pulp Fiction
90. The Station Agent
91. As Good as it Gets
92. Keeping the Faith
93. October Sky
94. Spiderman I
95. Wonder Boys
96. Multiplicity
97. Boondock Saints
98. High Fidelity
99. Luggage of the Gods
100. Adaptation
101. Labyrinth (starring David Bowie)
102. Human Nature
103. Gone with the Wind
104. Shawshank Redemption (currently the only one I own... I just moved geez!)
105. Mr. Holland's Opus

And now... my movies

106. Independance Day
107. Rocky Horror Picture Show (Go see it every friday at midnight at the Rialto on Glennwood in Raleigh. Frickin Awesome!!!)
108. The Butterfly Effect

if you have a blog, do this yourself. Or not. I don't care.

Oh My God......

2004-07-19T00:32:00.000-04:00

Dude i was wrong about south Park. Its nuts... It really was the shockingest episode ever. Normally cartman tries to pull some scheme and it doesn't work. They learn a lesson and some inspirational music is played. but no. This time cartman got back at the kid who scammed him out of 16 bucks for pubes. He got his parents killed. Geez you had to see it. it was so wrong. But really fucking AWESOME. That is all. I am still the man.

162 Times...

2004-07-19T00:01:00.000-04:00

The South Park Shit episode said shit 162 times. I think thats more than the Movie. And the Most shicking episode is the pube episode. Cartman bought pubes from a 10th grader. Damn.

SSDD. Still....

2004-07-18T23:39:00.000-04:00

Yup. My life still sucks and I still have no life. But, i've been doing a lot of shit on the computer. Speaking of shit, I'm watching the shit episode of "South Park," where they say shit all through the show and its uncensored. They've said it like 70 times already. ok now 76.

I love South Park. They make fun of so many issues in today's society. wow! 85 times now. Damn. Comedy Central is counting down to the most shocking South Park episode. Its at midnight, and the shit episode is the 2nd mosty shocking. SHIT. ok. i'll let you all know what the shockingest episode is.

Peace out. A-Town. YEAH!

What's new? nothing. SSDD...

2004-07-17T17:26:00.000-04:00

Yup. Same Shit Different Day. By the way, Google is taking over the world. If you blog, then you know that they have aquired so many blogging tools inthe past months and made them free. Now they have added Picasa, a nifty little photo organizer. Now if only they would give me a gmail account.

2004-07-15T23:06:00.000-04:00

By the way...

2004-07-14T21:36:00.000-04:00

Watch out for shifty lesbians....

Rainy Raleigh...

2004-07-14T21:34:00.000-04:00

It always rain here...

I never thought I'd miss it....

2004-07-13T13:36:00.000-04:00

But I do. I've had kidney stones since I was 10; now I don't. The first one was the size of a strawberry. Never had any Pain meds. Well, I did, but my mother wouldn't let me have them cause she said I would turn into a drug addict. She also said my pain wasn't real; supposedly I was faking it to get out of work. So she took my meds cause she said her pain was real. Oh well. I guess it wasn't so bad cause it made me unique. Having to deal with the pain on my own allowed me to develop a strong resistance to it. Almost every day for 8 years, I was in constant battle with those stones. Finally my mother couldn't ignore me anymore and she took me to the hospital. They said my kidney had been damaged real bad due to ignoring the problem. Mom never really apologized for that.

So they blasted it and blasted it and most of it got out. After about 1 year and 7 or more minor procedures, I was left with a tiny grain of sand that wouldn't leave.

Pain was gone for a month or two. Then it came back but it had a lot to do with the fact that my kidney was just so damaged still. Never had the time to heal either because another stone grew up the size of a thumbnail.

so they blasted it. Broke it in half. But I was tired of the lithotripsies. So was my insurance. So they jammed a tube into me and sucked it out. Kept me in the hospital for a few weeks till my kidney healed, then let me go.

Now I have no Pain. It's rough because I have always had it, I'm used to it. It's like a security blanket of sorts. I'm a Obsessive Compulsive\Bi-polar\Manic Depressive with ADHD. But I never had time to be any of those because I was too busy mentally calming my pain. Now at night I stay up worried about everything and nothing, and I can't sleep. But by next year I'll get another stone. Then everything will be back to normal. I'll be ok then.

Blogger never ceases to amaze....

2004-07-12T16:44:00.000-04:00

I Just found out that Blogger is letting us phone in our posts as mp3 audio. Frickin A! This is sweet! So now, in addition to the already idiotic written posts, you now get the pleasure of hearing them.

2004-07-10T22:11:00.000-04:00

SQUIRREL!!!! SQUIRREL!!!! SQUIRREL!!!! SQUIRREL!!!! SQUIRREL!!!! SQUIRREL!!!! SQUIRREL!!!! SQUIRREL!!!! SQUIRREL!!!! SQUIRREL!!!! SQUIRREL!!!! SQUIRREL!!!! SQUIRREL!!!! SQUIRREL!!!! SQUIRREL!!!! SQUIRREL!!!! SQUIRREL!!!! SQUIRREL!!!! SQUIRREL!!!! SQUIRREL!!!!

Mike, a friend of mine from TX, went to Arkansas and took a pic of this squirrel. I thought it was cool. So I posted it.

I can do this because I AM THE MAN!!!!

I don't like politics much...

2004-07-10T15:44:00.000-04:00

But People need to give Bush a break. If you want a scapegoat, blame yourselves. You say that they didn't do enough to prevent 9/11. But what would have happened if they did know enough to stop the attack. They would have crushed the plans, nothing would have happened, but the people would be stuck with the receipt for the effort. Now tell me, how many of you all wouldn't have bitched and moaned then about Bush spending too much on the countermeasures? Huh? HUH? OK then. He's damned if he did, damned if he didn't. And that goes for the whole gov.

Plus, the poor guy has to serve in the wake of 9/11, his daddy, and the infamous Clinton. I'm voting for him simply because he derserves another term, hopefully free of bullshit. I know I've told you I'm a Military Brat(I'm a Man now Biii-otch), and don't like seeing the boys go off for a year and get beheaded and shit. But I wouldn't have any other man send the boys, off.

And I swore in last year too, knowing I could go of in the Army. Unfortunately, I was unable to go to boot camp, but I'd have served proudly under George W. Bush.

By the way... here's the link for Sellotape

Can someone explain to me what this is...

2004-07-06T14:44:00.000-04:00

I have no idea. I sculpted it from fimo clay with no plans. just went at it. Someone please tell me what i made!

Lawyers are so dumb...

2004-07-05T14:13:00.000-04:00

Cruisin' the wide world of blogs, I stumbled upon a fellow bloggist exploiting the tight-assity(yes, it's a word, I made it up) of fineprint lawyers.
Underblog wrote of a particular company called Sellotape, makers of fine biodegradable film. This site, in the copyright section explicitly states: "Hyperlinking to this site, is not permitted without the express prior permission of Sellotape"

OK. Tough. This is the web babe. SO as part of the Tell Sellotape Where To Stick It campaign I hereby post the link to Sellotape. In case you missed it, here it is again.

Happy 4th of July! But do we really care about the truth?

2004-07-04T15:39:00.000-04:00

It's the 4th again. Every month, the day after the third is the fourth. But why do we give a shit about this one? Independence Day? Naw... that event just happens to fall on the same day as the 4th of July. Crazy huh? Kinda like my birthday is on the same day Martin Luther King Jr. Day. But we only celebrate mine.

The 4th of July is an excuse to blow ourselves up with fireworks we had to smuggle from Virginia. And a chance to really show off the new 6,000 BTU grill we just bought to use like only 2 months of the year.

I used to do retail. So for that world, its money. Red, White, and Blue means Green for all. Its the fad to dress up all weekend in these primary colors. Kinda funny though, cause like our flag is the same colors. What a coincidence.

Maybe I'm bitching because I'm a military brat(your taxpayer dollars paid for my therapy...Thanks, but it didn't work), or maybe I'm bitter cause I have no family to celebrate the 4th with. But Honestly, did we forget the reason the 4th is even spoken of?

Sure we go through it in school, but when we grow up it is up to us to keep the spirit alive. It's a shame it took 9/11 for flags to come out on a regular basis. And even that became a money making scheme. Let's at least try to remember the past and the present as the fight for independence continues on.

So go ahead and blow yourselves up with your bottlerockets and new grill. But remember who were blown up for your constitutional right to act a fool.

Happy Independence day!

This could piss off a lot of science teachers...

2004-07-04T13:53:00.000-04:00

But who cares. In Governor's school, I had a physics class in which the theory of relativity was the source of many nightmares for all of us. So, partly as a joke, and partly from an information overload, I created the gnome theory.

The Gnome Theory at a glance...
Everyone knows about atoms and neutrons and protons. But what people don't know are that there are little tiny creatures that are too tiny to see, and even if you had a electron microscope, you still couldn't see them because they are invisible due to their delicate limbo between dimensions. These gnomes perform all the functions that scientists write 400 page dissertations about that nobody reads. Gnomes are simple, gnomes are cool. Very few people care about the reflectivity of photons and how they reflect and refract on a mirror. I don't. But people would be more interested, or at least amused to know that little gnomes live inside of the mirrors and spend the whole day catching the photons and throwing them back. They have little baseball gloves and, believe me Randy Johnson has nothing on these guys.

The only reason why I bring this theory up is because I was asked by a fellow GSW classmate at a reunion to explain more theories with gnomes or other mystical creatures.

So if any one has a particularly stumping scientific quandary they need explained, let me know and I'll ask my gnome friends what's up.

I know about the Gnomes because they live in my head. THEY TELL ME THINGS!

Meatwad!

2004-07-03T21:47:00.000-04:00

Meatwad! He is the coolest member of the AquaTeen Hunger Force. All meat no brain, this guy is the shiznit. Catch him on Adult swim on CartoonNetwork at 12am. The picture shown is a magnet of him that I relief sculpted from fimo clay.
This may sound like a plug for ATHF, and it is. The shows embodies the stupidity that a lot of us need to unwind at night. However, as dumb as the show may act, a lot of good issues are brought up dealing with current pop culture items.

Photo Blogging? OK. I can Dig.

2004-07-03T16:40:00.000-04:00

Seeing that camera phones are now a new way to take pics of life in motion, and they are fast becoming a part of pop culture, I will succomb to photoblogging. The pics that will be posted on this blog are all taken with a Nokia 3200 phone.

This is a pic of me at the New River Gorge in WV. Jimmy is from WV and we were up there because his dad had a stroke.

This is the first pic any of us took together; at Atlantic Beach in NC.

Donnie Darko...

2004-07-01T21:56:00.000-04:00

I finally saw Donnie Darko. I first heard about it in Governor's school, but I never recieved the opportunity to view it. But I just watched it last night and I love it. I want everybody to see it. The concept of the movie is too complex to discuss here, but it kinda shows that if you change time to erase bad shit, worse shit can happen.

Yes I know i said Shit.

Shit Shit Shit Shit Shit Shit Shit Shit Shit Shit Shit Shit Shit

To Be That Dumb and That Rich....

2004-07-01T16:39:00.000-04:00

I know she is morbidly blonde, but damn! No one is that dumb and that successful. The only reason the Newlywed show has gone on is because people like to see the epitome of the perfect blond. Plus every commercial she is in plays off her ignorance. I think that is the new image that she is forced to portray. If she ever gets some sense into her head, her career is over.

If you can't guess who I'm talking about, it's Jessica Simpson.

Why Does Forever Scare Me?

2004-06-30T22:43:00.000-04:00

Forever scares the crap out of me. I guess it's because I think too much about everything. I like to figure out how things work or the logic of them. But forever is one of those concepts you can't ponder too much on. You can define forever, it has no end. If you think about it too much... you will go mad, as I do sometimes. I am not scared of many things, but the concept of forever is the one that can ruin my day. One would think that being a Southern Baptist would make the concept easier. But I am a GAY Southern Baptist; this just complicates things. I'm saved, but I am not in control of who I love. However according to the Bible, I am living in sin. I am trying not to worry about that.

So, according to the Baptist doctrine, after death you either go to heaven or hell... Forever. I know I am going to heaven, but even that scares me because it is FOREVER. I know that up there, I won't worry because there is no worry, but down here there is. So, until I die, I am going to worry about this inexplicable thing that is forever.

Damn I'm a mess.

The First Cut is the Deepest

2004-06-29T13:39:00.000-04:00

My First Scarification/Ink Rubbing

This is a project I did about a month ago. I posted this on Bmezine and they posted this story, but I want to repost it on Blogger so more people can learn from my experience. When I was younger, I was a burner. I would brand my arm to escape the pains that I was not brave enough to face on my own. It never got too bad or serious, but that and some longstanding medical problems have altered my sense of pain. External pain does not affect me the way other pain can. I learned to use several techniques to minimize other types of pain which has allowed me to stand 8 years of kidney stones. I have not self-mutilated myself in a year, but I want to delve into a more positive form of it: Body modification.

I have always been a fan of peircings, tattoos, brands, and other mods, but the price tag for the procedures, and the inappropriateness in the business world has left me unable to pursue it as I want. A few of the brands I have done in the past for decorative purpose were not enough. I wanted an ink rubbing. I never cut before, burning was always my device. But I thought it would be a good start for a few body mods to symbolize my change into a stronger person(i.e. the Ubermensch).

Using a CLEAN X-acto and the ink of several bic pens, I successfully inscribed "ich bin ubermensch" onto my left ankle. German for "I am Superhuman," it was symbolic of a certain mental and spiritual transformation that I am going under. The whole process made me high, not like a pot high, but a surreal happiness high.

There is a lot of negative connotation about body mods such as cutting and branding, but it is just as expressive as tattoos. For many BodyMods are the only way to for someone to express themselves. Granted, a few have modded with no reason other than to look cool, but everything I do has a symbolic reason that defines me as a person, as a human, and as an Ubermensch.

Don't franchise a good thing

2004-06-28T14:37:00.000-04:00

While driving in Raleigh with my boyfriend, he pointed out the newest apocalyptic scroll of the fast food industry's attempt to push out the greater things in life. McCafe I guess it was, I glanced briefly at the name and may have forgotten it as I immediately began to brew over the fact that now in addition getting your veins waxed with a thick layer of grease, you can now get a supersized McLatte that has the same impersonality as buying a stamp.
Don't get me wrong, I like fast food. But it's not like they added a few gourmet coffees on their to go menu. It's a whole expansion. It seems to be a complete irony, a coffee house in a McDonald's. I don't see how you can enjoy a good Anne Rice book or a new Cosmo Girl while right next door is the screaming of spoiled fat kids and the scent of a big Mac.
I have a friend who owns a coffee shop. She has murals all over the walls depicting fairy tales and starry nights. The tables are all decopaughed with clippings and pictures of popular faces. I like The Beatles table the best. The coffee is great and so are the little baked items and ice cream that makes a nice mix to the menu. The other half of the shop is a library of sorts. You can curl up in a big chair or sprawl on a couch as you study for a test in near silence. The warm sweet aromas carry you on as you finish a project on your laptop while connected to their wireless network. No one waits for you to leave,nor are you bombarded by bitching children who didn't get the toy they wanted. You are free to enter whatever wonderland you choose for however long you want. Now tell me; can McDonald's give you that?